Monster

You’re a coward

No wonder you get walked all over

These days

Your selfless liar

Whose gullible enough to believe hes not fake

Every word that falls from his lips

Could be stretched around

Made to fit

A squeaky clean version of what he used to be

The person I once knew so well

Before he ever met me

Where were you all this time

Is all I said

She left you for him

 And now your begging me to understand

That your different now

Yeah, you worked everything out

And yet somehow I don't see a change
Your the same guy who walked away

Oh monster

I turned you into something

Far worse than you ever been

The shy boy I once knew

Is mister over confident man

You think you can have anyone

One Chance

What’s your problem?

I know I did nothing at all again.

You have forgotten the words

Left inside my head, before I left

You said everything would be alright.

And now two months later, we barely speak.

My emotions have increased

As yours seem to deplete.

The notion that Opposites attract

Is what draws me to believe
That we could be more than a regular fling.

I knew all along

That you were to good to be true.

We were broken the same way

And looked for the truth

In whatever we could find

Whatever we could do.

But somehow my search

Always led me back to you

You say you want to move on

And I understand completely.

I don’t want to waste my time

On letters soon to be forgotten

Thrown away by years and years of lies.

Because remember in the park

You held me tight and whispered from your heart

The words that your future was mine.

Looking back I wish I held onto that

I wish I had believed in one chance.

Strange How Fast Things Change

Broken ties

Is what we ended up to be?

You’re a sad little boy

With a boring plea

To convince the world that you’re always right

Always put up a fight, when they disagree.

But you will never see

Yourself, pathetic is what your always be.

Oh Charlie

I wonder if you see yourself.

Because Now I see you

Imitating the whole crowd.

I thought you were different

Your own person at least

But you turned out to be

So easy to leave.

You broke all your rules

To better your chances in this world

Where lust is all that exists

Drunken words are the endings to a perfect kiss.

Yet, I never thought you would sink

So low like the others we would see

Laughing as they stumbled

“Yeah that will never be me”

Stranger

Sitting alone on the drive back to your southern place

Thinking of all that you messed

It’s all thrown away.

You just sat back and watched as she attacked me

With words filled with just hate.

I will never forget you

Or should I say, I will never forget that face.

Dear boy

Im sorry that I was never yours.

All the tears I saw you bleed

Were your signs for wanting a way out.

But I held on too tightly, so you couldn’t leave.

Suffocating the ways we used to lead

So occupied by love, I was to blind to see

The stranger you were destined to be

All along.

The last night I saw you

I remember so clear in my brain.

We sat in my car trying to find songs to explain

The way we felt but could never actually say.

As you held me in your arms

I cried to the song that you played

And you whispered to me “everythings okay”

But as I looked up at your straight face

I just knew you weren’t the same

I hope you always find a reason to smile

No one will understand the truth

Hidden deep inside

Left for no more words to use.

I swear I told you millions of times

The wrongs you made

You cant go back in time, no

No apologies will fix

The scars you left.

Behind the strength I possess

Is the same girl you left months ago

Days go on and on and on and on

Repeated motion of my past

And I’ve moved onto betters things

Yeah, I’ve built myself stronger than the last

Time you saw me

The night that I held onto the truth

That no matter what you do

I will somehow always love you.

Best friends we were.

Even when things got bad

I was always there for you, yeah

Your number one fan.

And Now as I stare up at your face
A stranger to me is what beams
From that crooked smile expressing all your sympathy.

But somehow I don't want you to leave
I know your capable of it
Since it has happen before.
Yet, your the one person
No matter how hard I try, I can never ignore.

I was Hopeful

I love your smile.

I love the way you kiss.

The way you walked me back

Even though you almost missed

The train that took me away.

Just like a movie scene

I was holding my breathe

Capturing this memory

Open your eyes

This time you won't do wrong

No, please don’t let me down.

Just believe that this could be something

Anything

A new chance to make a new start

Just whatever you do

From now on

Don’t be afraid of your own heart.

I love the way I talk to you everyday

All day long

About countless random things

Compliments that are always drawn.

And I try not to get so hopeful

Because your everything I have ever wanted

You’re the perfect one for me

But I know with first impressions

They sometimes deceive.
Hiding flaws that you don't want to see.

Yet looking back now, I turned out to be right
Who would have known now
You lied the entire time.
But at least I learned lesson
To not be so quick to give
Into a boy whose more obsessed with himself
Than I ever was.

Your Just Another

Your just another

We all are the same somehow

Take me back to your apartment

And go on we could start this out.

As I lay on my back , I close my eyes

Try to fight all the wrongs out of my mind

Find peace in the way your lips touch mine

Oh no, this isn’t what I want

But tonight it will be just fine.

I wanna believe in love again

I wanna feel the way I felt

Before I got it all torn out

Left with nothing but pictures from the past

Yet, I cut you out of all them

But you never seem to go away
Your in every face that leaves me to say
Why are they all the same?

Happy Ending

Please don’t forget me

Were the last words he said.

Spoken like an open book

That she read.

Were too young for love anyways

Were always to young for everything

And with broken hearts they both collide.

Time flies and now hes gone off to decide

What he really wants in his own life.

Oh, why cant we just breathe the same?

Why does the future have to be in the way

Of what we are right now

Oh, if I had one wish I swear to see

You come back to me

And maybe for once in my life

Things could finally end happily.

Where do I start?

To be honest, I have no idea how to start this blog. I have spent about a couple days now writing out what my first post would be. But, nothing seems to satisfy me. I guess that is why I stick to writing poetry rather than writing in an everyday journal. Poetry to me is a way to release my emotions without having to sound a certain way. I don't have to worry about where commas go or how a particular sentence sounds. I just write.
The whole purpose of creating this blog was to display my poetry to the Internet world. For many years, I have never been a fan of showing my poetry to other people. I never felt the need to show it to anyone. Since it's my own thoughts, people wouldn't understand. I was also scared of what people would think of me after they read it. But as I grow older, I have grown to the realization that I don't care what other people think of me. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. That is life. Yet, I am my own person and am happy being that way. I know that not everyone is going to be my biggest fan but maybe I can inspire someone. Maybe I can help someone in some way.